a simple thought

Hari ini aku menulis untuk aku kenang di masa depan tahun depan 10 tahun lagi ketika anak-anak beranjak dewasa ketika aku tua bahwa, di tahun ini 2020 dunia luluh lantak negara adidaya tak berdaya orang miskin menjerit pengusaha kecil menangis anak-anak tidak sekolah mahluk di dunia berhenti ketakutan dan bersembunyi dalam rumah penghasilan harian terhenti sebagian harus terima nasib unpaid leave dan politikus masih saja jahat orang jahat timbun kebutuhan medis dijual lebih mahal walau konglomerat bergabung menyodorkan bantuan bantuan dari Yayasan Budha yang maju hari ini aku ingin mencatat Tuhan membiarkan hal ini terjadi ketika kuasa gelap menguasai dunia Tuhan membiarkan hal ini terjadi seperti yang ada tertulis tentang akhir jaman tapi Tuhan tidak akan membiarkan ini berlangsung lama DIA akan membuktikan kuasanya. pada saatnya, akan aku tuliskan lagi. bagaimana Maha Besar TUHAN

Selain coding and robotic Leonie juga minta Les piano. She started it last november (2018). So it has been 6 months. Dia ga pernah mau practice at home tapi sesekali play piano yg ada di lobi sekolahnya. Karena piano di rumah (piano listrik) tidak sama dgn piano di tempat les. *tepokjidat Today, I met her piano teacher. Asking her how's leonie progressing. She said, leonie will play two songs at concert. By herself. Gak mau duet ditemenin miss nya walopun this will be her first concert. "She's quick in memorizing new song loh, bu," said her teacher. She often said although Leonie like that (special pake telor), she has the passion in things she likes and that makes her brighter than other kids (not trying to comparing yah) Well, as i said in my previous posts.. I will experience more special things because of her. Hahaha...

Setelah 2 semester ikut ekstrakurikuler Coding di sekolahnya dan dipercaya ikut Coding Olympiad yg diselenggarakan Coding Bee Academy, saya akhirnya memutuskan untuk menggali lebih dalam minat Leonie dengan memasukkannya ke Kursus semiprivate coding. Sebelum join, setiap anak ikut trial yang akan menentukan levelnya dia ketika join sehingga teachers akan menyesuaikan dengan kemampuan msg2 anak. Leonie trial dan diajukan untuk join di Coding 3 utk usia 9-11 (tho she's turning 8 this august). Her first day, she excited with code.org krn biasanya dia hanya pakai scratch. Teacher let her. Her second meeting, teacher told me she still insisted using code.org and angry when her miss asked her to switch to scratch and do a project. The teacher asked me what to do to make her change her persistence mood. Teachernya blg gini: "anaknya padahal bright loh bu, makanya dia di higher level than tmn2 di kelasnya. Tapi ya gitu, moody yah? Malah miss nya kyk didorong-fisik spy gak g...

many moms asked me (or: julid me), why do I let onie spend times with her laptop or tablet.  moms, pls deh, i also have rules. Gadget rules. She only plays 2hrs a day and fulls in weekend (but has to stop when the battery out). She has this high-level curiosity in games, codes, robotics and all those related to computer. Strictly restraining her from computers will limit her time to explore more on things she likes that could be her talents.  Just like #convothismorning me: onie, today is tuesday, u have robotic after school right Onie: yes ma.  Me: do you now like robotic? (Krn sblumnya dia sebel, cm ky main lego) onie: ow yea ma. Robotic is awesome. U know last time I saw upper class moved robotics hands and legs using computer. I've never done that (la iya, kelas 2 SD ngrakit dulu aja kek main lego) Me: iya. that robot can move because it is programmed. onie: o yea ma, i like it. I want to learn it.  Bahas ini matanya berbinar2 and tone suaranya sem...

2 bulan lalu, anak perempuan saya, si Onie umur 7th merengek-rengek minta ikut ekskul Coding bee di sekolahnya. Dalam hati saya membatin, keren juga anak SD jaman now ada ekskul seperti ini (walaupun sbenarnya ini pengenalan IT ke anak2 dengan cara simple dan sudah pakai aplikasi). Mungkin ekskul ini sudah ada sejak lama tapi saya yang kudet. Hehehe.. Kami ortunya akhirnya setuju dia ekskul tsb. Its okay dia explore hal2 baru yang dia suka. Suatu waktu di perjalanan ke sekolah, anak ini tetiba bilang "mama, i want to create a phone, make a game, create computer." Saya sempat terdiam. Buat mamak generasi x ujung macam saya, cita2 dia (yang bisa jadi berubah seiring dengan bertambahnya umur dan pengetahuan) ini cukup bikin surprise. Waktu saya seumur dia cita2 paling jadi guru, dokter, tentara... lah ini mau bikin handphone, mau bikin komputer. 😅😅 Canggih jg 🤣 Saya jadi teringat satu presentasi dari principal sekolahnya. "The biggest challenge is to prepare our childre...

Masih tentang Leonie, my special daughter. :) She who always makes me smile and oftentimes worrying. Leonie masuk kelas dua. Kelas 1 nilainya bagus walaupun gak istimewa2 banget tapi masih diatas average kelasnya. Kelas 1 diisi dengan hari2 dia sering keluar kelas semaunya, apalagi kalau dia gak suka dengan gurunya. Sering jg missnya laporan kalau dia suka lari2an, kejar2an sama boys, brantem, ngilangin barang temen, rebut barang teman, dll. Mamaknya pusing 🤕🤕 Kelas 2 ini sudah berjalan 3 bulan. Missnya sudah pusing sama kelakuan onie. Dah gak terhitung brapa kali disetrap. Gak mau masuk kelas, main pensil warna sampai gak nyimak pelajaran, hilang/ngumpet padahal udh masuk pelajaran berikutnya. Kebayang dong gmn tenarnya anak bocah saya ini? 😂😂 Minggu depan onie tes Tova dan psikologi, dianjurkan oleh dr dwidjo smartkid. Kenapa saya konsul lagi walaupun dia sdh tidak speech delayed? Krn saya kepo anak saya ini sebenarnya bagaimana. I think i need expert help to identify her be...

Raising a special child has never been easy. Worryness, uneasy, confuse.  Dua bulan pertama,  berkali-kali dapat laporan dari Miss-nya. Leonie buka rok di depan teman2nya, Leonie keluar kelas ketika pelajaran, Leonie gak mau dancing, leonie ke toilet lama, leonie begini, begitu... Dan nilainya dari bagus, ke jelek, bagus lagi...  dan conversationnya yang masih berantakan... kerap dibully sama teman2nya padahal badannya besar.  Worry? pasti.. bisa kah Leonie beradaptasi dengan lingkungan, dengan teman-teman barunya?  Belajar gak mau, maunya main game dan nonton tv... mamak mana yang gak pusing dan khawatir. Walaupun kata ortu.... bisa ngomong aja udah ngucap syukur, manage your expectation laa...  Ya udah.. ketika UTS, I let her do as she wanted. Mau belajar? ya udah bagus.. bosen, ngantuk, gak mau belajar? Ya sudah gpp. The Result? hahaha... A, B, B- paling rendah. No C. :) Well, worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles ...

Leonie is now walking to her next journey, as a primary school student. Masih dengan keterbatasannya menggunakan bahasa Indonesia mix English. Masih belum jelas mengutarakan opininya, masih slebor, tidak fokus, ... but I dare to put her in a new school. This is her second day. On her first day, she was nowhere to find among her friends. I was panicked. She was not on the line with her friends who were waiting to be picked up by parents. I desperately ask her teacher where she was. Then a security officer brought her with him and when she saw me, she ran and hugged me. She was not crying. I ask her, why she was not stand in the line with her friends and teacher. Repeating her answer, she said that she had been looking for my car. "But I could not find your car, mom. I was looking for your car, mom" "You could just ask your teacher, where is your mom," said the security guy. "please don't be separated from your teacher tomorrow," the guy conti...

After a while... I decided to write again the development of our child, Leonie. Posts tentang speech delay di komen beberapa kali oleh para bunda yang senasib galaunya dengan saya setahun yang lalu.  See posts terapi wicara untuk anak speech delay and terapi wicara vs day care . Agustus 2015, Leonie tepat berusia 4 tahun. Sesuai dengan umurnya, kami memutuskan untuk memasukkan Onie ke TK. Untuk itu, kami kembali menetap di rumah ortu karena sekolah yang kami pilih yang dekat dengan rmh ortu. Onie sekolah bareng dengan sepupu yang seumur dengannya.  TK yg kami pilih adalah TK kekinian yang bahasa pengantarnya bilingual- bahasa dan English dan katanya sudah meng-adopt kurikulum ala2 Cambridge.  How was Onie? Well, dengan kesulitannya mengungkapkan kata2.. sangat sulit untuk Onie berinteraksi dengan sekelilingnya. Onie masuk dengan kata2 yang sangat terbatas, tidak bisa mengungkapkan keinginannya, masih suka semaunya, ignorance dengan sekitar, masih pakai diapers, ...

Apa yang mau di look back? my will to write. untuk menulis. Sekarang ini makin jarang menulis. Why? Sama seperti alasan klise, gak punya waktu. Kerja, berangkat pagi pulang malam. Belum lagi sebelum dan sepulang kerja masih harus bercengkrama, main-main dengan para krucils... Dan kantor mengadakan internal workshop writing. It was a short workshop but it slap me right to my face. You haven't created anything the past fourteen years, nes. Yes. I was productive before. Before i was busy with tons of activities, works, matters, busy minds, busy life, busy nez... In the past, when I was in high school, I was selected among hundreds of students to attend a writing workshop which one of the speaker was Seno Gumira Ajidarma. Lupa waktu itu kelas berapa.. kalau gak salah kelas 2 SMA deh... dan saya entah kenapa dipilih. Tapi saya ingat, seorang english teacher-forgot his name, mengambil karya tulis saya - an english fiction, dan memuatnya di newsletter sekolah lain-tempat dia men...

My maternity leave will end next 3 weeks. Yiihhaa!! But deep inside i want it ended faster. three weeks is another long time. I've spent these months counting on the days I'll be back working.  Ibu durhaka? Iyesh. Hahaha... Well, I love my newborn baby, I love my kids. Tapi berbeda dengan cuti melahirkan anak pertama, kali ini my passion to back to work is heavier. Ntah kenapa. Kalau dulu rasanya berat sekali untuk kembali bekerja. Kali ini? I really want to go back working. Serius! But I won't be crazy by sacrificing 3 minggu terakhir ini dan hurry back working. No... walaupun udah berat banget ini di rumah, bawaan pingin keluar terus... I learned to be patient.  To be honest, ini ujian kesabaran dari Tuhan, ujian lainnya dari ujian2 lainnya. Mungkin ibu2 lain akan anggap saya gila dengan menganggap cuti melahirkan itu ujian kesabaran. But yes, for me who loves being active... this is a torture. (maap yah anak2ku...)  What do i learn this two months?...

it was in my young age when i was being too fanatic with some thing/person. now i don't have any thing or person to over-idolized. I'm being ordinary with anything. I took everything lightly and never think too hard with some thing. I rarely bother things which against my stand.  but these days i've seen more and more friends become overly fanatic over some thing/person/religion. not to mention only moslem but also christian. are they wrong? they're not. if they being fanatic just for themselves and not bothering anyone. it's okay. but if their fanaticism led to hatred, looking for hard argument, bothering people's lives, shaking other comforts, forcing others to follow theirs... well, that's bad.  i was too fanatic in religion at those old days. i see people who didn't walk in the same way as a sinner. but as time goes by and through so many journey, i realized, fanaticism is a private zone. you should not mix it with outside world. If you chos...

Everytime I told doctors or friends that I had insufficient milk produce, they didn't believe it. They said I did not try enough. I tried to breastfeed my baby. The first one was failed. She couldn't get exclusively breastfed but she managed to get my breastmilk upto she was 7 months. My second baby now is 6 weeks old. I pumped every 3 hours and got 70-90 ml which I treated it as gold liquid. I envy a friend who told me she produced 150ml in 2 hours. She has the same latch problem but no probs in producing milk. Yesterday i went to pediatrician  taking my baby. When asked about breastfeeding, the doctor was disappointed with my decision to give formula to my son. She said every mother can breastfeed. It broke my heart. I told her all the effort i took. All those supplements, vegetables,  soup, domperidone.. She didn't know what I've been through. She said I was trauma with my first baby and my mindset kept telling me I'm unable to produce milk. Let me s...

This is another controversy that i would reveal through this blog. I know that certain people, especially those who joined mother's milk club, para anggota forum garis keras ASI, will hate my thought and probably would bullying me for sure.  This is my second baby. The first one born in 2011. Seperti ibu-ibu baru lainnya, saya termasuk yang sangat idealis dan sudah mempersiapkan semuanya. Dari perlengkapan bayi, baju2, perlengkapan mandi, gear, bedding, dsb smuanya yang terbaik lah walaupun bukan yang termahal. Termasuk juga sudah mempersiapkan diri untuk menyusui secara ekslusif.  Si kakak lahir, dengan pedenya saya nyusuin dia walopun asi belum keluar. not even rembesan di PD. Tapi cuek lah... kita dengarkan para obgyn, dokter anak dan para bidan and suster yang bilang susuin aja terus, bayi bisa bertahan tanpa intake selama 2-3 hari karena masih ada sisa dari selama dia di rahim ibunya.  Oh ok. So dengan pedenya nyusuin. Walopuunn... masuk ke hari ke-3...

Hi all,  Let me introduce you our newest family member... Paulus Evander Silalahi. Born on 2 February 2015 at 7.53, weigh 3.7 Length 50cm. He completed our small family, me, my husband and Leonie.  All troubles during pregnancy now goneee... and now i'm on my maternity leave for three months. busy ensuring baby Evan can sleep soundlessly, healthy till the day i leave him for work again.  Thank Jesus for the abundant blessings. I may not be able come this far if YOU're not with me all time... Thank you...

Being pregnant is a blessing. Tugas paling mulia yang diemban setiap wanita, kodrat mereka sebagai wanita; melahirkan dan menjadi ibu. Being pregnant (for 2nd time) is the most difficult thing for me, the hardest days. Hamil Leonie dulu, serba pasrah, cengeng, dan tujuan jalani hidup sehari cuma 1: melahirkan. Hamil ke dua ini, entah kenapa the pain, frustation is worse than my 1st pregnancy. I felt useless. So many things in mind, so many target but hard to achieve due to the thing i carry everyday. I love being pregnant, not many women can have child easily as me and i thank God for that. These days i tried to calm myself. There'll be plenty time to do things i want after i labour this child. Ini cuma delay, bukan tidak bisa terwujud. Tenang... Calm yourself nes. Maybe God wants you to take a break a while from all your business, from all your ambition. You'll have all time of your life after this pregnancy, to do all you want and to achieve all your ambition. Take ...

In a global marketplace where problems are increasingly complex, no one person will ever have all the answers. That’s why Google’s SVP of People Operations, Lazlo Bock, says humility is one of the traits he’s looking for in new hires. “Your end goal,” explained Bock , “is what can we do together to problem-solve. I’ve contributed my piece, and then I step back.” And it is not just humility in creating space for others to contribute, says Bock—it’s “intellectual humility. Without humility, you are unable to learn.” A recent Catalyst study backs this up , showing that humility is one of four critical leadership factors for creating an environment where employees from different demographic backgrounds feel included. In a survey of more than 1500 workers from Australia, China, Germany, India, Mexico, and the U.S., we found that when employees observed altruistic or selfless behavior in their managers — a style characterized by 1) acts of humility, such as learning from ...

Ini postingan update dari postinganku sebelumnya tentang my baby Leonie yang aku putuskan untuk berhenti terapi wicara. (postingan lama) In January, me and husband decided to stop all Leonie speech therapy and enrolled her to Day Care inclusive preschool. Kami gambling sebenarnya karena terngiang-ngiang himbauan dari para dokter dan psikolog anak bahwa anak Speech Delay disarankan TIDAK diikutkan di preschool terlebih dahulu karena dikhawatirkan anak tersebut akan merasa berbeda karena belum bisa berbicara dan berakibat ke low self-esteem and self confidence.  Saya membaca salah satu buku Ayah Edi dan di buku tersebut disebutkan bahwa anak Telat bicara tidak perlu terapi, hanya perlu banyak bergaul dan diajak ngobrol.  Two different opinions. Sangat bertolak belakang.  I wrote this on May, 3rd. 4 bulan setelah Leonie bergabung di Day Care-nya. Bagaimana perkembangan anak ini sekarang di usianya 2 tahun 9 bulan?  1. Bisa mengucapkan 1 - 10 dlm bahasa Indonesi...

Employee engagement, internal communication, depend so much with the top management. No matter how hard we try to polish a leader, if he's not good, sooner or later would be revealed. I don't have any complaint with this one. He's good from within, no need to make up him to look good. No need engagement or communication tactics to make people love him. Everybody loves him. Everybody was crying when hearing the news. Everybody was disappointed with the HQ for how they treated him. Gloomy days in office lasted weeks.  It's him... the first greatest chairman i've ever managed.

Keluarga batak terkenal dgn sistem kekerabatan yang sangat kental dengan budaya patriarki yang tak lengkang dan tak punah oleh waktu, tak mudah tergerus dengan invasi budaya luar maupun ideologi modernisme. Berubah, iya. Tapi secara makna, tidak. Hari ini, kami bertiga mendatangi rumah tulang dari suami. Tulang di keluarga batak adalah saudara laki-laki dari ibu kita. Jadi tulang yg kali ini kami datangi adalah adik lelaki ibu suami saya. Seperti biasa di keluarga suami, ada tradisi memasak ayam na binatur* (ayam bakar berumbu yg diatur) dan ayam tsb kita suguhkan kepada tulang sbg tanda hormat kita. Kemudian pihak tulang akan menyuapi ayam tsb ke kami satu persatu sebagai tanda kasih sekaligus doa berkat pada kami. Konon, tulang adalah posisi terhormat dan pasu-pasu ni tulang-doa berkat dari tulang adalah harapan dari setiap boru/bere. Bingung? :) saya sendiri tdk terlalu mendalami tradisi yang ada di keluarga batak, tapi masih dgn bangga utk menjalaninya. Dan seperti halnya tulan...