a simple thought

it was in my young age when i was being too fanatic with some thing/person. now i don't have any thing or person to over-idolized. I'm being ordinary with anything. I took everything lightly and never think too hard with some thing. I rarely bother things which against my stand.  but these days i've seen more and more friends become overly fanatic over some thing/person/religion. not to mention only moslem but also christian. are they wrong? they're not. if they being fanatic just for themselves and not bothering anyone. it's okay. but if their fanaticism led to hatred, looking for hard argument, bothering people's lives, shaking other comforts, forcing others to follow theirs... well, that's bad.  i was too fanatic in religion at those old days. i see people who didn't walk in the same way as a sinner. but as time goes by and through so many journey, i realized, fanaticism is a private zone. you should not mix it with outside world. If you chos...

Everytime I told doctors or friends that I had insufficient milk produce, they didn't believe it. They said I did not try enough. I tried to breastfeed my baby. The first one was failed. She couldn't get exclusively breastfed but she managed to get my breastmilk upto she was 7 months. My second baby now is 6 weeks old. I pumped every 3 hours and got 70-90 ml which I treated it as gold liquid. I envy a friend who told me she produced 150ml in 2 hours. She has the same latch problem but no probs in producing milk. Yesterday i went to pediatrician  taking my baby. When asked about breastfeeding, the doctor was disappointed with my decision to give formula to my son. She said every mother can breastfeed. It broke my heart. I told her all the effort i took. All those supplements, vegetables,  soup, domperidone.. She didn't know what I've been through. She said I was trauma with my first baby and my mindset kept telling me I'm unable to produce milk. Let me s...